What am I doing

Hello, I’m FG Jones. I’ve been referred to as a geek, nerd, loser, fat, but rarely as mean, dumb, unfriendly, nor unkind. I can be a bit obnoxious at times, most of the time. I don’t really look at life like most or at least how I think most people see life. Sometimes I put the oddest things together sometimes coming up with a humorous though, sometimes a little off putting. I use to truly believe there was something special about me. That I was meant for an extraordinary life. I was never good at sports so my stardom wasn’t going to come as an athlete for sure. I was never outgoing enough to be an actor or comic. Although I enjoy singing I don’t think anyone would want to hear me perform. Music instruments seems more like a torture device in my hands than a beautiful art form. Speaking of art, I went to collage to study graphic design. I always enjoyed drawing. The thing I learned most in school was there are a lot of people much better at art than me. I have managed to make a career working in print shops but a Mad Men marketing genius I’ll never become. As I make my way through the list of celebrity in the makings I even thought I could become a world famous author, and although I enjoy writing, I’ve never been too bright when it came to the world of adverbs, adjectives and nouns. The proper structure of write is beyond me. It doesn’t fit into my logical brain.

So what does it all mean, well as time goes by I’ve realized maybe I’m not that special. Maybe I am not meant for bigger and better things. So now that my dreams are stuck in the absurd how do I reign them in so I can truly enjoy where I am? First off by pretending I am have an audience. So I’m gonna talk to you, my fans as I would want to be talked to. Next I’m going to review my life openly here. I have always though if I write down my feelings for future review, then things that are bothering me now work themselves out.

One thing to keep in mind if someone actually reads this is I’ll mostly be typing this up on an iPhone. I also tend to write like I think and that can be a bit jumbled at times. Just reading back through this, I see where my thoughts start to wander a bit and for me it is fine. A kind of stream of consciousness feel.

Some of the things I’ll write are personal feelings or views on things. I’m also hoping to post stories or maybe just start stories but hopeful something that is entertaining.

As you read pieces I wrote in school you’ll notice grammar and spelling issues. I’m leaving them as I originally wrote them to keep the purity of the piece as I wrote them. I will however include some updated thoughts on the pieces. These will appear in italics.

I think this will be it for now and hope to keep in touch.

Thanks for reading.